1st of January...
and I have no opinion whatsoever. Not at this point. It's as if... some winter storm has blown through me leaving only empty spaces, and slight discomfort.
It gave me the sudden urge to organize everything around me. And as I looked through old school papers, drawings, meaningless writings and so on... I realized... that I feel old.
I'm young - but reading a birthday card from when I was 10 just... felt so wrong. I didn't throw it out though, I like to keep these things safe, I like the fact that I can look back, and remember things I thought I had forgotten.

The thing is...
purity has become more and more important to me. I'm spiritual at heart, I have my purple and perfect hideout in my dreams, but in my immediate reality (the one I flee from all the often) I now see I have to re-structure.
No room for any blank objects anymore. I want to gather everything that I love and treasure dearly, close around me, without any questioning elements to disturb the sacred karma.
Burning jasmine incense, listening to The End, and floating away. Knowing that I can fly happily in my privacy, not worrying about the wrong stuff being present.
So this was just the first step.
I'm not even half-way - looking through my closet I noticed a lot had to be done, but I just had no energy.
It will come though.
I need that.
And I feel as if completing this transformation will lead me on a path to a less painful year, compared to 2007.